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Going back...not backwards

I have been watching myself lately. I am so much happier. So much more joyful. I feel life within. I breathe. I smell. I enjoy. I respond.
All the simple things in life matter so much more to me now than ever.
I feel like a child in many ways.
I enjoy music. I enjoy the sun...seriously, that is a big deal for me. I enjoy the storms. I enjoy good company. I enjoy being alone.
In so many ways, I feel fulfilled. I do not worry about a tomorrow, though I plan for it.

I am able to do so many things with abandon. As if I don't care. Truth is I care too much. About what I do. Not about the outcome. It is freedom in many ways. Some people may call it liberation. But it seems too big a word, right now. Freedom is fine. Happiness seems just right. :)
Having S around definitely adds to the beauty, as she is so full of life too. I seem to be attracting intense & joyful people too :)
I am grateful. For what I am today. Thanks to Isha.
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  1. UnknownJuly 27, 2011 at 12:37 AM

    Thanks to Sadhguru & Isha for every-every-thing!
    On some days, I have to cover my mouth with the scarf/shawl coz I am laughing/smiling at nothing and attracting strange looks from everyone on the road!

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