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Giving

I read Sadhguru's article recently here.

While I dramatically make big issues about receiving, this man shows it on my face that I am receiving in more ways than I know. And now I realize that blatant truth.
It took me a day to shake the shock out of me & face reality.
It seems so natural(& mechanical) to think so many times about receiving something from someone. I think about repaying it someway/somehow until I actually do so.

Life is not about ethics or morals like I've been taught growing up. It seems much simpler than that. As a kid, this seems simple. But after all the complexities I am caught up with, it is an eon in itself to carefully "unlearn" everything I learnt so carelessly.
Sometimes, when I am caught up with, "Oh, how do I teach her(S)how to handle this? How do I teach her how to share? How do I change her attitude to these things?", I catch myself settle & realize that I need to just let her be herself instead of pushing my garbage into her growth. It is the most important lesson I have to learn.
Learning is easier than unlearning!!!


A movie I saw few years ago, shook me to this same extent.

I don't know the ultimate truth behind both. I don't know how the Universe functions. I don't know how I function. I don't even know if I wish I knew it all.
*SIGH*
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