Friday, September 17, 2010

A milestone

Today,exactly a year ago, 17th September 2009 was my first day of Shambhavi. My association with Isha. The first 40 days, for some reason, did not look like a milestone. I continued it twice even after the 40 days. And then 2 months later, I took my first trip to the Tennessee Ashram for my Shoonya. And the 6 months target was also touched. Since then, no looking back. But now, 1 year. Sure seems like a milestone. Don't know why. But it does. I am aware that there are so many people with more than 15 years association with Isha. But this is my journey. And I feel many things. Mostly grateful.
Life has changed immensely. I'd have probably missed my daily practices for about 5 days in all of this 365 days. It did not seem easy to even think of doing 2 hours of practice every day for 1 year. But somehow, it happened. Between S. Between all our travels. It just happened.
It feels like the worst of the my life is behind me. I don't have anything to look forward to. Just honestly grateful for everything around me.
I've been fortunate to spend considerable time with some long-time volunteers & fellow meditators. I don't know what I missed. But the 1 year has been quite a learning experience. I've had moments of intense emotions, ecstasy & absolute confusion. With every single emotion, the veil was removed to reveal something way bigger. From a logic-understanding person to a devout, it's been quite a journey.
One year has been a good time for me to realize that this is my path. This path, where I have to constantly be aware & alert, lest I lose the joy of life.
At this point, I don't feel forced to take up other advanced courses(though I know they will find a way). Inner Engineering alone is enough to shed loads & loads of stuff I'd been unknowingly carrying for so long. And I feel so light today.
I used to get angry for everything. Something. Nothing. Now, I don't have a reason to get angry on anything. I don't have anger in me to share it with those around me.
I don't need to get to a beach, don't need to hike 10 miles, see the mountains, watch a sunrise to feel happy. I am just pleasant & happy by myself...though I totally enjoy all of the above.
This so-called world has shrunk or is it my world that has expanded? I am not able to point a finger at.
And of course the very "insignificant" side effects of Shambhavi.
1. I've lost 22-25 lbs of weight.
2. I sleep about 5-6 hours a night I wake up with so much joy & life.
3. I have very deep sleep.
4. I am enjoying finer things in life.
5. I've been told more than once that I look at least 6 years younger.
6. I've never felt healthier.

And now you can do the same course online.

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow

Vinutha said...

Meera,

It's really true doing practice of Shambhavi and Kriya makes things let more easier to handle. Gives a real lively expirence to happen.

Anonymous said...

wah wah wah

Radha said...

So happy to read this !

Anupama said...

Insignificant side-effects indeed! :-))
"I don't need to get to a beach, don't need to hike 10 miles, see the mountains, watch a sunrise to feel happy."- Lovely, aint it?!
All these these things shouldnt be done to "destress", they are such beautiful things. Not wrong though.

Ramsi said...

Very happy for you dear!!!!!

Praveen.Isha said...

"I don't have anything to look forward to"....
I feel exactly the same. Meera, Very nice sharing. Nice blog. Keep it up. I Will visit again...

nanyar said...

very well said, resonates so many things that I felt myself. Thanks

Arjun said...

Really nice blog.. I'm quite new to Isha.. Did my Shambhavi in July 2011... then my shoonya immediately after the 40 days in august... I've finished the 40 days for Shoonya also now.. Did Shambhavi twice a day along with the Shoonya twice a day.. I want to ask you how you manage both now? Do you still do the twice a day? Or once in the morning? Would be great to hear your schedule.. I'm a little confused on how to go forward - if I should stick to once a day or twice... so just looking around from people who have done it. Thanks...

ME said...

Arjun,
Please give me your email id so I can get back to you...if ever you choose to come back & see this. :)

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